October 13

Saturday October 13
I woke up at 5:30 California time today. I went up to the 36 floor of our hotel, the Grand Hyatt in Union Square.  The entire city was dark but the view was fantastic.  I wrote in my travel journal and watched the sunrise while michelle and kate slept in.  Around 8, we went to find breakfast.  The concierge suggested this placed named Sears, but there was a long line so we went to Goldens Gate Grill.  It was really cool inside, was owned by the same people and there was no line.  All of us are being careful about what we're eating today. I got eggs and toast. My stomach is so tight I can hardly eat.  We went around to Niketown and Macy's after breakfast and Kate and Michelle bought NWM items, but I couldn't bring myself to buy anything.  Our inspiration lunch was at noon.  We met everyone in the lobby and walked .5 miles to the Muscone Center.  The lunch was a bit overwhelming for me.  Walking into the building there were tons of people cheering, blowing whistles and yelling.  For some reason, it really freaked me out.  I felt like I was having an emotional break down during lunch.  It became so real.  I can't believe I'm running a marathon tomorrow.  I don't want to do this, I won't be able to do this, I'm going to die tomorrow.  The walk home was very quiet for me.  I just felt frozen by fear.  I went back to the hotel and laid down.  It didn't really help clear my mind though.  I'm so afraid and I can't explain why.  I keep picturing myself getting hurt, being carried off the course, not making it.  26.2 miles sounds impossible, painful.  For dinner, I joined Kate and her parents at an Italian restaurant in little Italy.  They hired a car and made reservations in advance.  Good thing because the city was so packed with people it would've been near impossible to get a taxi.  Kate and I were able to split chicken and pasta, very similar to our usual Friday night meal, which I was very thankful for.  Dinner was great and we got home a bit after 8, plenty of time to get to bed early.